I’ve been quiet on here for quite some time. That’s because I
have had a lot of thoughts floating through, in and out of, my head. Sometimes
I feel like a little boy, lying on his back, watching the sky, and watching the
kites as they fly up and down and around. Occasionally one of those kites will
swoop low enough that the boy can read the lettering on its side. That
lettering? Those are my thoughts most of the time.
I used to run around chasing and trying to catch the kites.
But that was too much work and produced hazy end results. This way, letting the
thoughts coalesce, is much more restful – still hazy – but more restful.
Two quotes have come together, from two very different sources, to hopefully produce one coherent thought.
“Many mornings I wake
up an utter unbeliever – worse than any atheist” – Christian Wiman
“Every morning I must
say again to myself, Today I start.” – St. Anthony of the Desert
Do you feel this way too?
I don’t know. Maybe it’s just that I’m too busy in the mornings.
Or maybe I’m not enough of a morning person.
Either way, it seems like, if I let me, my self likes to get to
lunch time-ish before I remember to start properly.
And by then of course I have to start with penitence for my
reticence and when I’m done with that I usually forget why I wanted to start
anyways…
The point is. I’ve been much better about starting the day with
what we used to call, “quiet time.” That idea of starting fresh every day, not
because I should, but because I need.
Do you feel this way too?
